The more I thought about those things/events, the more I hated them and even the idea of seeing them. it is so hard when you trust someone to be your friend, to be your wing-man, to be your moral support, and they reject you, not because something's wrong with you, but because they think that you're not worth it, because they take you granted, because they think that you can never accomplish anything worthwhile in life and being with you is nothing more than just a waste of time. Sometimes, I thank them, because if it were not for them, I would have never challenged myself and raise my level above them. But somewhere within that feeling kept me from even thinking about them, let alone forgiving them.
Until recently, when I realised that its a burden that i am carrying with me for so long, its a worthless waste of time crap which has pinned me down and these feelings have become heavier ever since they first started bothering me. This has prompted me to give a second thought to my inner-conscious and I asked myself, IS IT REALLY WORTH IT?
This feeling of anger/grudge/betrayal and god knows what, is eating me from inside and now its time for me to FREE myself from this burden.
So I have forgiven them, not because they deserved it, NO! but because I wanted to feel lighter, and it worked? you bet it did! The moment I forgive them, I felt so light, so free, so joyful and so much positive than I ever was...
Holding grudge against anyone doesn't do any harm to them, instead its like smoking cigarettes, sooner or later, it will kill you from inside to a point of no return. Thankfully, I was not there yet. but most of us don't understand it until it happens to us.
To a future, where forgiveness prevails more than grudge and revenge.
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